for some reason i have no control over my mind... nothing i think about is mine to control...like my ex, example.... i want to stop worrying about her.. but when you devote 4 or more yrs to someone it's really kinda hard... and i hate it more or less. cuz i cant get her out of my head and i now she knows to cuz she shows she flaunts it in my face that i either meant nothing or i am nothing... she just treated me so wrong and i hate it cuz i have some many questions and no answers... NONE... mostly cuz i dont wish to talk to her... i mean i could but why interfere in her new life that possibly isnt full of lies.
im not saying Kira isnt a good Gf she's great everything is amazing, yet i just know that i could have at least saved what little friendship we had... and i just did what my ex did and pushed her away... im a lunkhead... Kira is the greatest thing to happen to me and here i am worried about some ABUSIVE FETAL MURDERER....
sadly i do not regret that she didnt have our child in fact i see it as a blessing... i would have regretted letting my Ex bring a child into this world when we cant even get along... here she as a mother cant tell the truth...
i just hope if she is having this new guys baby that at least they get along well cuz i see him leaving her cuz she fucked around and got pregnant AFTER 3-4 MONTHS....
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